i'm caught in the middle of no where

..........god..
i dunno what im feelin' inside me..i feel so rotten..and later feel really sad..and then i started to feel like cryin' again.then again i dunno what exactly i should feel..
ARGH! is what i feel 2hours ago..
but now im feelin' much better after talkin' to pq,thanks girl..really appreciate it..skippin' of lesson jus to hear me pour my..erm..tears especially..haha.. well at least im not cryin' anymore..geez,it sound so cheesy..haha..
but of cuz im still sad inside..and pq is realy rite about this,which goes like that..
"mm,u are feelin' really down cuz mostly,your world revolves round him.."
Yea! she's fuckin' rite..damn! it hit the spot!

guess it would never b the same again,u know,..with things..
(altho' i really hope it'll be..but..)
and altho' we are not totally through yet..but..i guess it sooner will be..
from the way things are now..
so i think i should pack up my feelin' already..
i dunno im confused..really am..
i feel the way im feelin' now cuz..with things i least expected happenin'..it totally turn your world upside down..
i always tot that i will be strong..but no! i cant really put up a strong front..when im all weak inside..
guess to numb myself is what i should do..
well well well..mm..piercin'!!!hahaha..u know thats wat my sis do la..haha..i guess it works..so maybe i should go for it..

but of cuz if you wanted to make things right again..

talkin' bout it really makes me feel better..
even tho' i still dunno what to think or what to do..

well im tired..
i really am..
i shall go now..